No Fear in Love

It was November 5, 2014

I had been dealing with anxiety and panicking for months leading up to this…We had completed the classes, home studies and were waiting for official certification.  But I had begun to doubt my ability and allow fear to take over.

On this day, I called a very wise friend who was a foster and adoptive mom of 5 for wisdom and encouragement.  She said, “Fear is the opposite of faith, If you’re in fear, the enemy is close and that means God has great plans for you!” I journaled this day as I had been during this process.

Instantly I felt relief wash over me.  I felt a weight off my shoulders.  I decided to go forward in faith instead of fear. 

We waited with anticipation and on March 4, 2015  Ella, 4 months old, was brought to our home and we began the foster care journey, with wide eyes and love in our hearts.  It was an unexplainable feeling holding her for the first time. 

Later that Fall, I was going back through my journal of this whole adventure and found the journal entry dated Nov 5, 2014 – with the conversation I had with my friend… the day I had experienced great fear.

-I stared at the date in complete AWE!  That was the day Ella was born! She was born on November 5, 2014!! It was confirmation that we were indeed supposed to be doing this and she indeed belonged to us and the Lord had indeed been orchestrating this all along!

I had also learned not to give into my fear.  Satan uses your weaknesses to keep you from doing what you were called to do. 🖤And so begins my story of seeing the Lord work through my weakness.

My weakness is ANXIETY.

And I have never been so close to Him through it all. 

In the darkest of nights, HE has been my Peace. 🖤

Do not be afraid, the Lord goes before you and will fight for you. Deut 1:29-30

There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. 1 John 4:18

Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. 1 Peter 5:8 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍 #nofearinlove #anxiety #godisgood #fostercare #fearisaliar #fostercareawarenessmonth